2011 in a blog post.

A card I drew for Christmas last year.

January: Set up a Twitter account for the NM module I was taking at that time, and I'm proud to be maintaining it till now. Okay partly cuz I think I love to get followers. It makes me feel like I'm the leader of this powerful cult and I can manipulate them. And I also wrote a blog post on how much I love Portuguese Egg Tarts. FORESHADOWING the HK trip which is going to happen. Woohoo. And I wrote about my three resolutions,1. Go for OCIP/Summer School Programme (P Went for CUHK Summer School!), 2. Take up the role of leading/organising a project (P Doing now, organising something for know-the-angmohs) and 3. Be open to making friends (P Okay lah, personally think I was a little more open. At least in Year 3 Sem 1. I kind of enjoyed all the projects I did.)

February: It was CNY and collecting angbaos. I wrote about how happy I was that my tutee's mum gave me a lot of money for CNY. I'm so glad CNY is coming soon and I am now tutoring his sis.

March: Japan's Earthquake. I wrote about how I felt it was karma. I think I was (and still am) biased against Japan. I just don't like the country for some reason. I must have been a war hero in my past life. I also wrote about how much I adored Hossan Leong and have been wanting to go watch his show. FORSHADOWING AGAIN! HAHA. Of course, I eventually went to watch it.

April: Exams, hence nothing much. I think this was when I applied for Summer School and got a place to go for it despite being (almost) rejected.

May: Looking for a job to pass time and failing to do it. Oh the General Elections which kept me and dad up the whole night, waiting to see who claims Aljunied.

June: Was bored at home till I fell sick before going to HK.

July: No archives cuz I was enjoying myself in HK. It was definitely the most memorable event of the year. I still think of random moments we experienced there and smile to myself these days. One day, I shall visit HK again. I also met my first ABC friend (Yoohoo, S_ms_n!) and drank the most amount of alcohol in one day (I think 2 sips? HAHAHAHAHA). And I love love love Ocean Park! I also did a module which I will never ever take when I am sane and I ended up developing some interest in it. Partly because I think my prof was really passionate about what he was teaching (he looked older than 70 and yet is still teaching!) and his classes were quite interesting.

August: So, back to reality after a month of uh, being the most out of control I can ever be. HAHAHAHA. I know that sounds misleading, I don't think I was out of control at any moment lah. Except when we slept at 3 or 4am on some days. I made the mistake of taking Forensic Science because it marked the start of cabbing home almost every Friday. HAHA. But it was a fun module still. And Group Dynamics project which I was glad to be part of.

September: I bought Realman Dontslang! By the way he has shrunk to his original mini size ever since he got out of the water. Easier for me to keep him too. HAHA. Receiving Teachers' Day gifts and feeling happy about it. Plus celebrating Mid-Autumn Festival!

October: Finding out that liu sha bao in Utown tastes as great as the great wall of China. Plus spreading "If you liked it then you should have put a ring on it".

November: Exams. Boring.

December: Eating life-transforming Char Siew Baos. Going to Malaysia to visit granddad and family. And meeting up with JC mates for Christmas! Oh and not forgetting the annual family gathering where all kids get presents. HAHA. I really loved my Christmas presents this year!

In all, the year seemed to have been great. The highlight of my year was definitely (repeating it for the 100th time) the HK trip. I was glad I took the bold step out of my comfort zone (okay well not exactly, I did it with someone I know so it should be a calculated risk) and went for it. There were many things I tried on that trip. I took the plane without my family for the first time, packed my own lugguage, buy groceries, wash own clothes, make friends, learn to be street smart and identify people you can trust, calculate the amount of money I can spend everyday, celebrated my birthday overseas with strangers, explore new places, experienced indigestion, took care of others and others took care of me, travelled with a chauffeur, hung out with bungee jumpers, met Ah Sin in another country other than SG, took a module on China...the list goes on. It makes me happy when I think of the moments we shared in HK.

I like the fact that I've made new friends in psych whom I can hang out with. I really love their company. I am also thankful that old friends are still keeping in touch. Cheers to 2011! I can't believe I wrote such a long post! :D

Just in case you haven't heard enough of it...

Hope Christmas is a good man because I wanna Merry (Marry) Christmas.

OKAY THAT WAS MY BEST ATTEMPT AT SENDING A GREETING WITHOUT HAVING IT SOUND CLICHE. I'm a little proud of myself actually.

Perhaps it's time to reflect on the year and if I am inspired enough, I might do those end-of-the-year-what-have-I-done-with-my-life-OMG?!-are-you-sure-a-year-has-passed? kind of post. Sorry, don't know why I am so in love with hyphens these days.

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Merry merry merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas! :D The Santa looks like he's having fun on top of the turkey (which, by the way, was the most awesome turkey I've ever eaten).

It has been a while since I've blogged. Actually not thatttttt long but I feel bad for you who refresh this page 138924 times a day so I decided to update! Anyway, there's nothing particularly exciting that you need to know about my life. But if you insist on knowing, this is what I've been doing:

1. Singing K for the 1000th time with MOF3 at slightly-sleazy-but unlimited-as-long-as-no-one-books and it-was-so-unlimited-we-sang-till-830pm-and-left-cuz-we-were-too-hungry place, and then being unable to go home cuz everyone was stranded when the NS line had problems and finally eating dinner at 1130pm.

2. Christmas party, whereby games were awesome (WHAHAHA cuz I googled them) and food was awesome. And gift exchange which was not-so-awesome. But ride to the nearest MRT was awesome cuz for once we needn't take cab out of that place.

3. Going to NUS to plan things for the angmohs. Which I shall not elaborate on since you are not interested and it doesn't value-add to your life if you knew what I did haha.

4. Dinner meet ups. Which have been pleasant. And Christmas card making session. Which was helpful if not I would not have any cards to send out.

5. Meeting up with HK peeps for lunch and Minds Cafe. Spilling drinks since they were free flow. OKAY NO IT WAS AN ACCIDENT I SWEAR. Playing games involving dinosaur bones. Realising that we could use that to play dog and bone.

Okay it's Christmas Eve and I don't feel the Christmas mood because every year my Christmas falls on the day we have our Christmas party. HAHA. And this year it ended sooooo early so it feels like Christmas is over. I still have a family gathering on Christmas Day itself and I can't wait for it cuz it's a nice reunion plus kids get gifts. BUTTTTTTT I'm working on the eve of Christmas. Yes in about 9hours time I'll be working. :s

I kind of like this slacking lifestyle I've been leading. I've finally found time to start reading novels again (mostly cuz I really really really want to finish The Time Traveler's Wife but no I'm nowhere near finishing it because of reasons which I'll mention after this bracket) but I've started reading this series about this professional psychic who helps in solving crimes and stuff. I don't know why but I am going crazy over it. I've finished all the books in the series which I can find in my little Yishun library and I've resorted to reading another series about ghostbusting. Which sounds like crap but makes me feel really really scared I don't know why! :s I mean, it's not that the ghosts are scary or anything like that. Okay maybe they are but I know that in the end the ghost will be captured in some way or another but I'm still scared. (No I'm not pretending to be a damsel in distress HAHHAHAHAHHA). Ah, why am I telling you all these. Maybe cuz I met this volunteer for know-the-angmohs on the bus today and she asked me what I was reading and I told her I was reading some murder story. She seemed really interested to know but I felt...uh, maybe embarrassed to share? I don't know, I just have this fear that she might find what I was reading a bit childish/lame. But hey, I borrowed it from the Adult section kay. (Enters defensive mode for no reason) LOL. I love it when I act out my life in my head.

That paragraph was getting too long and I hate long paragraphs so I'm gonna end here and go to sleep. Hopefully, I won't feel like strangling the kids tomorrow.

Things I want to do!

I thought besides singing K (which I am going to do later for the 4th time this hols ZZZZzzzz I think I'm going to just eat peanuts), playing mahjong, watching movies, shopping, eating, there's nothing much to do. I'm already running out of ideas for future gatherings. I've been repeating activities, singing K with different groups of people, eating the awesome char siew bao with two different groups of friends, and going to Minds Cafe with two different groups of people. WHY IS IT THAT THERE IS NOTHING TO DO IN SG! (YAY I managed to show off that I have friends. Woohoo~)

Well, my homework was to think of 3 things which I want to do, so I decided that (like all other kinds of homework I've been given) I should start by googling. And I came across this site which suggests 42 things to do in SG! SURPRISE! So I'm going to complete my homework here by picking out the stuff that I wanna do:

1. Visit Changi Prison

The description on the website says: "Visit the Changi Prison. It’s free entrance for both tourists and inmates. Drop by the museum nearby and Changi chapel for some WW2 history and Changi prisoner of war photos. If you are hungry after that or feel you need to appreciate life better, head over to the Changi Village Nasi Lemak for a bite and clean up every grain. " So it sounds kind of cool! I've always wanted to visit that place. Think I once saw the AMK CC organise a day tour kind of thing there and was tempted to sign up for it.

2. OHOH I just remembered from my forensic science class. I want to go listen to a case in court. It'll be uber cool but not something I can ask my friends along. I can't picture myself asking anyone.

3. This place sounds cool too: "Visit the only kampong left in Singapore. You can find the place if you walk along Lorong Buangkok. It’s a very small stretch of old zinc roof houses left untouched by the changing times and probably the only place you cannot find HDB car park attendants." WHERE IS IT WHERE IS IT?

4. Okay I wanna go Little India too. I've never really been there. Never really because I have been there, but 1. I don't remember what we did there, and 2. I think we were supposed to bring some students around the place so I didn't get to go there to explore.

5. Last thing on my list--I want to do something artsy. Like watch a performance (Better still if it's free), go to the museum and see art pieces (and feel like a tai-tai with nothing better to do), uh, that's the most artsy thing I can think of.

YAY. I've completed my homework!

My Mundane Life.

Life has been eat sleep tv fb whatsapp. And lots of kangxi. I watch about 3-5 episodes a day, and that's a lot considering that I force myself to go out of the house almost everyday. And I just agreed to K with MOF3 cuz I haven't seen her for 1023198 years but deep inside I swear I'm gonna eat the next mic I see one. Bleagh.

Malaysia trip had been pleasant. At least I learnt that my grandpa's house is not in JB but in this area called Scudai (or something like that). I always thought it was part of JB. K is dirt cheap, RM9.9 for 3 hours with set lunch and a drink. Cheap like 大便 omg. Little cousin was super cute too. He looked like a special baby. I mean, other than the angmoh baby I'm gonna give birth to in future. Squeezing 8 people in a 5-seater was scary, until we tried 11 people in a 7-seater. That's Malaysia, haha.

I suddenly realised that the contract for the broadband I've been using is expiring, and that I have accumulated a wealth of 1000++ points in the Hub account (what do they call it?) which I can use to claim stuff. So I spent some time on the site to look through the catalogue. Either the things I want are all fully redeemed or I have insufficient points for them. The only thing I have sufficient points for is...donating it to charity, i.e. exchange 250points for a $5 donation to charity. Which I tried to do eventually but I cannot redeem that even. It's kind of lame.

Okay, that didn't seem very important but sorry, only trivial things are happening in my life now haha. And to make you a little more jealous (though I doubt you care), I'm gonna eat the life-transforming mouth-watering more-tasty-than-pastry char siew bao again tomorrow omgomgomg!! I can't wait omgomgomgomgomgomogmgomgomogmogmogmogmgomgomgomg.

#likea大便

Haha, super nice food again! In Malaysia! :D

This makes the food I'm eating everyday like 大便 in comparison.

Life-transforming Char Siew Baos.

Just to reinforce... The char siew bao is really super super nice OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG. I am so excited at the thought of it. I know it looks like an ordinary char siew bao but NO, it's life-changing. I am never really into baos, except the first life-changing liu sha bao but this is even more life-changing. It is life-transforming. HAHA.

And we had to wait quite long for it but it was totally worth it OMGOMGOMG. Some liked the siew mai (I didn't, thought they were too meaty. Haha, but it means it's full of substance yo!) and some liked the har gao (though it was not bad for a hawker stall) but CHAR SIEW BAO IS HANDS UP THE WINNER (not hands down cuz once you eat it you cannot put your hands down). SERIOUS!

The meat is super duper juicy, and there is a slight taste of ginger in there. Much like a char siew xiao long bao feel. It smells as great as the great wall of China (okay I don't really know how the great wall smells like but you get the point), and it beats tim ho wan hands down down down!!! AH SIN DO YOU HEAR ME THIS IS BETTER THAN TIM HO WAN!!! WHAT IS THIS BAO DOING IN SINGAPORE OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.

Best part is, I'm not gonna tell you where to get them HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I want you to think about the bao day and night and night and day. WOOHOO~~~

Going to Malaysia tomorrow so I won't be blogging. HA, even if I stayed in SG I wouldn't be blogging too. I've kind of tried to refrain from going out but it's hard cuz I have a lot of friends. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA WHO AM I KIDDING. Okay, I think it's just like friends are going overseas so for some reason they wanna meet up everyday and I can't even find a day to nua at home. In case S_ms_n doesn't know what nua means it's something like...uh...behaving like a slug. Okay see it lost its meaning when you translate it cuz a slug is kind of gross but I don't mean I want to be gross. I don't wanna go out anymore!! (LOVE IT WHEN I GET TO SHOW OFF THAT I FINALLY HAVE FRIENDS) I've buffet-ed, K-ed so many times I wanna die (going to K tomorrow and then next week OMGGGGG), eaten life-transforming char siew baos, took a long walk, went to the museum, saw Christmas lights, watched movie, mahjong-ed, attended a birthday party, went to town so many times I wanna puke, and almost gone overseas (happening tomorrow HAHAHAHAHA). (LOVE IT WHEN I GET TO SHOW OFF THAT MY LIFE IS AS VIBRANT AS KATY PERRY'S FIREWORK)

Working today after a month's break was...refreshing. I felt quite happy to see the kids again, esp the P4 class cuz they squealed in joy when they knew I was teaching them. HAHAHAHHA (LOVE IT WHEN I GET TO SHOW OFF THAT PEOPLE LOVE ME). Okay, that's not the point but I guess it makes me really happy to see my kids again! It has been a long time since I taught so happily cuz usually school is super draining and when it comes to Sat I just want to nua (or slug) at home but have to drag myself out of the house so I'm always ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz (that was an omega long sentence omg!). ESP when you have Forensic Science which ends at the unearthly hour of 10pm the previous day. And I spent $6 on useless notebooks (4 of them, at Punkstar, super cute!!) because I feel happy. Then realised that I have nothing but notebooks at home (but these notebooks are different I swear!!). You can see how I usually debate with myself HAHAHAHA.

Okay, before I show off even more, I should go! This should be enough to make Ah Sin happy! HAHA, cheer up! :D

A song to my (future) angmoh boyfriend.

I keep thinking of this song when I'm doing my exam. Haha.

There are so many things for me to do after the exams. So much mess to clear up and so many things to sort out. Find out what matters and what doesn't. Because this is getting too tiring for me to bear.

P.S. Can't believe I'm still awake now.

A bold midst exam post.

How I am feeling now.

I want you to see this comic but I can't make it bigger. It's from one of the tumblr posts I accidentally chanced upon and I've been checking his tumblr ever since (though I don't have an account). The comics he posts are drawn by him, and he updates weekly (I think). Quite cool.

I don't think you can click on it to make it bigger so if interested, click HERE.

This is the time of the semester when you feel like asking someone out for dinner but you don't want to disturb others from studying. And everyone studies, whether they want to or not, whether they feel like it or not, whether they find it productive or not, because we don't want to feel guilty for not doing so. I am feeling very tired today.

Disappear from the face of facebook.

That's a gender-stereotypical cartoon which has no link to the blog post.

This blog post serves to tell you, my only reader, that exams are so near I can smell them. My first paper is on this Sat and my last paper is on next Sat. I'm glad they end so fast. But before they end, I shall study like there's no tomorrow. Except that there's really a tomorrow. I don't want to go for tuition but I can't believe my tutee's parents just paid me a week ago. It's like "Are you sure I did receive the money?! I don't know where it went!" And the suagu (for the sake of my only ABC reader, it literally means 'Mountain tortoise' in dialect. Supposed to refer to someone who urm, doesn't know a lot of things; hasn't seen much of the world; me) me just realised the thrills of online shopping! My sister introduced me to it and I ordered clothes for the first time on Sunday night. They are even cheaper than the ones I bought in HK omg. They haven't arrived yet but I'm very excited haha.

That's all. I'm going to disappear from the face of...facebook. I'll try lah.

There's gotta be more to life...

The last time I'm going to let myself be distracted before I finish the paper due tomorrow. It's actually 3/4 done already, and I can choose to string them into sentences which flow and submit whatever I have. But I have about 0.5% motivation to make it a bit better.

I feel like blogging more than ever nowadays. It's like I'm in denial that my first exam is in 8 days' time and it's all going to end in 2 weeks. I can't wait for it all to end cuz I really want to just sit and stare at the world go round and round and round and round...

Most Bizarre 'Bad Romance' everrrrrrrrr.

What is happening to the world?!

The UNKNOWN feeling.

I don't like to blog when I don't feel happy. And I've been experiencing this feeling for the past week or so.

It is one of those times when I feel bothered by a lot of things and I don't feel like doing certain things. This feeling comes once in a while. I don't really know how to resolve it because it's weird to talk about it. I'm just getting sick of everything. In the past I thought I needed change. Change to my routine lifestyle. To get to know more people, widen my social dot (because as I said a long time ago, it's so small it's not even a circle). Now that I (think I) have a few more friends, it's not removing that feeling which has been bugging me for a long long time. Since I don't know what it's called and it's hard to have to explain it each time I feel it, it shall be called...the UNKNOWN feeling. HAHAHAHAHA.

Since we are in the mood, let's talk about more sad things.

I had wanted to learn piano since I was in kindergarten. But I knew that my parents could not afford to get me a piano. I brought up the possibility of learning piano to my mum and I saw the guilt in her face. She kept asking me, "Do you really really want to learn the piano?" In my heart, I was like, "Yes, I really really REALLY want to learn it." But I couldn't possibly say that to her because I knew we could not afford it. Years later, when I was in primary school, I told her that it was a good thing that she didn't send me for classes cuz I'll probably give up halfway. Later, I heard people say things like "If you don't learn piano when you are young, your fingers get stiff and it'll be a lot harder for you to play well." So whenever I remembered, I tried to move my fingers in the hope that they don't become stiff. Come to think of it, it was really silly. HAHA. In secondary school, I had this principal who played a song on the piano for the secondary 4s who were graduating. She shared that she recently took up piano, something that she had wanted to do for a long long time. I remember the song she played. It was Xiao Bai Chuan, a very simple song. Yet there was something very beautiful about it. At that time, I told myself that one day, I'm going to learn piano. When I become rich. Or maybe when I retire from work and am old and bored.

The feeling I'm feeling now is similar to when I was in sec school. During that time, there were periods of time when I hated my family for not being afford many things. I was angry at my parents for bearing children when they cannot even afford to give them the best. I swore that in future, I'll make sure I can give my kids the best before I even think about having children. I hated them for not being able to send me for piano classes when I was young.

When I grew older, the anger was suppressed. I feel this hatred less frequently. Occasionally I still feel it, like when I see how people around me can change iPhones like clothes, or have expensive hobbies like photography/baking (ingredients are expensive!)/diving (I know people who dive like once a month or something) etc. And sometimes on Saturdays, I ask myself why I have to wake up early and work when other people can sleep in and enjoy their weekend.

There are a lot of girly things which I cannot do. I cannot bake, because we never had an oven. In fact, my mum cannot really cook--she only learnt it in recent years after my dad had a heart attack and had to eat more healthily. She never had the time to cook cuz she had to work. I cannot do cross-stitching/knitting/whatever girly sewing stuff because my mother never had the time to teach me. I cannot cook because my mum never taught me. In fact, besides earning money, there's nothing I know how to do. When I think of such things, the hatred resurfaces.

Sometimes, I try to think on the bright side. Like hey, at least I don't become a spoilt brat! At least I know that money doesn't come by easily and I cherish what I have. Though we are not rich, we still have food on our tables, a shelter over our heads, electricity in our flat. Then when the hatred sets in, I think "But I would trade all of this just to be a spoilt brat for a day." People don't get it. It's not just about me hating the fact that we are poor and rambling on and on about how I am disadvantaged in many ways just because my family is not as well-off. It is more than that. It is growing up with this negativity in the house, when your parents fret over money but they try to hide it from you but you find out anyway. It's about feeling helpless because you constantly need to depend on others in some way, like when my mum's siblings pass her money before Chinese New Year because we don't have money to get new clothes/give out red packets to other money-sucking kids. It's about the immense number of favours you owe, accumulated over the years, and even when they say "It's okay", in your mind you make a mental note that you owed them something and you have to work hard in future to repay all these favours.

I don't know why I ended up going into this. Well, this wasn't even the reason why I feel the UNKNOWN feeling. Perhaps I was trying to seek attention (again, what's new HA!), perhaps I just had to get this out of my body so that I can make space for the reasons behind UNKNOWN feeling.

Ah, I can't wait for exams to be over.

Groups and being simple.

I cannot believe the semester is ending. In less than a month, I'll be done with all my papers and holidays would start! :D

In the last week, I had 2 presentations to do and fortunately (I think) both went well. Especially the video which we did for one of the presentations. You know how at the end of every group project you start thinking, "Oh crap, what's next. Is everything going to end here?" And from what I learnt in class, some groups are task-focused. Meaning the group dissolves after completing the project. It takes a lot of effort to ensure that the group can progress beyond that stage.

Thinking back, my Marketing group was one such example. We had a great time working together and we enjoyed working together. We performed well too. When the project ended, the group simply dissolved. We talk to each other when we bump into each other, catching up with each other sincerely (as compared to the insincere small talk we are sometimes forced to make with other people). But we just don't go out together, or talk frequently online.

There are also some bad group experiences whereby I just cannot bond with the members. No matter how hard I make the effort to. I attribute the reason to 'No fate'. It's not anyone's fault, or at least I would like to think that it's not my fault. When the project ends, the only thought on my mind was, "Good riddance!" Okay, that sounded evil, especially after I said it was no one's fault that the group turned out like that, but still...it's a huge relief that it's over and we don't have to be forced to meet again.

There are also some groups whereby besides performing, we also achieve some relationship building in the process. I'm really grateful for such groups, because if not I'll still be a loner in Year 3. The reason why I started talking about groups is cuz I was thinking about whether one of my groups had the potential to become one such group. Whereby we can go out together during the holidays and hang out. It might be a little hard but I'm going to take the first step. I think. :D HAHA.

Moving on, my homework for the week since S_ms_n refused to share,

HOW TO BE SIMPLE

1. 1
   Use correct posture- if you slouch all the time, you will have back problems in the future.
2. 2
   Find the easiest way of doing things- If something can be easy, do it in the simplest way. Don't take 15 steps to solve a problem that requires 2 steps to solve. Now this doesn't means that the easiest way is always easy.
3. 3
   Think before you speak- if you don't have anything to say, then don't say any thing. If you do have anything to say, think about what you're saying to avoid making further embarrassment and stupidity of yourself.
4. 4
   Have some sense- Simple people are the most productive people because they have the 5 life senses(book sense, common sense, street sense, fashion sense, and business sense) Not everyone is going to have an equal amount but try to be equal in all fields.
5. 5
   Dress simple- Don't go for anything too colorful and not too dull. If its formal, wear some dark slacks, a decent white dress shirt, a red tie, and some black dress shoes. Its as simple as wearing t-shirt and blue jeans. But your style is you.
6. 6
   Have some manners- it wont kill you and good manners will take you very far in life.
7. 7
   Don't be a coward- Stand up for what you believe in. Simple people also think before mental and physical argument.
8. 8
   Have a good attitude. This is by far the most important thing to have. A good attitude is worth more than a billion dollars. If a simple person is told to do something, he does it, but he doesn't get pushed in the wrong direction either. He doesn't get used or taken advantage of.
9. 9
   Be independent.You can try to get things done by yourself such as cleaning your bedroom, doing your homework, maybe cooking or cleaning. This will show you are responsible and independent.
10. 10
    Stick to good morals and values. Don't drink, smoke, do drugs or party all night. These things aren't important, they won't help your future-and they're definitely not good for you or your health. Stay away from it! If moderate alcohol use is traditional in your family, ask an adult for advice on responsible drinking. Stick to a curfew hour even if your parents haven't set one for you, like always be home by midnight or earlier. (business smart)

Basically I think no. 1 is crap, no. 2 makes some sense, I think I've been doing no. 3, am clueless about how to achieve no. 4, I think I'm not too colourful w.r.t. no. 5, hope I've been practising no. 6, am a coward so I'll never do no. 7, how to determine if my attitude is good? w.r.t. no. 8, what has being independent got to do with being simple?! so no. 9 is crap, and I think I've stuck with my values so far except the stick to curfew hour part cuz my parents don't set one for me but I think the latest I've been home is around 1am.

Uh, being simple doesn't seem too simple.

Energy of the universe, gather around me.

I am jealous of my P1 student. He has an ultraman eraser.

I need all the energy from the universe. I can't believe I'll be in school at 9am till forever on a public holiday. This stinks.

The Best Karma Example.

流沙包

Today I had a craving for this:

I had it once at Bruce Cafe in NUS and it was awesomeeeeeee. For the ignorant (HAHA, don't worry I was once ignorant too, I only knew it in recent years), this is called 流沙包. The yellowish filling is supposed to be custard and molten salted egg yolk. When eaten warm, the contents is supposed to flow out!

I tried it twice in HK but I didn't know you had to eat it immediately to see it flow out. If you wait too long, the contents may harden. And so both times I tried, it didn't flow out so I was super disappointed.

So today I had the craving again and I went all the way to Bruce Cafe in the island of Utown. AND. THEY. TOLD. ME. IT. WAS. SOLD. OUT. :( Mega sad. And it didn't help that I had to order something (since I was there and it'll be a little embarrassing if I didn't order anything), and I ended up with 3 pieces of carrot cake. I only wanted one, but it's another story. ZZZZzzzzz.

10 Random Facts About Me

I think I've probably done a bit of this in a past blog post but this is in the spirit of an EEE with Samson. Exciting Entry Exchange. It is a lame game I came up with (or was it another friend of mine, I don't remember) whereby we write on the same topic and read each others' entries. The only purpose is to kill time, haha.

So here we go, 10 random facts about me!

1. I've mentioned it a thousand times I think. I hate round nuggets. I like those which are shaped oddly. Round nuggets make me disgusted.

2. I play Chinese Chess and am lousy at it.

3. My favourite cartoon is Spongebob so I was a little sad when they did a study and found that watching it makes you stupid. Or something along the lines of stupid. I don't remember. I also like Crayon Shin-Chan. I watch a lot of Tom and Jerry when I was young too.

4. I have never downloaded a song online illegally. Not because I fear getting caught but because I am too not tech-savvy to do it. Like where do you download it from ah?

5. I am interested in women's issues. Not the PMS/menstrual cramps kind of issues but more of like women's rights. If I remain single forever and have no kin, I might become a women rights fighter. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

6. I am secretly an introvert, according to the results of a psychological test I did last semester. I am supposed to be low in openness to experiences and low in extraversion. Which makes me a boring and shallow person.

7. I only have one ABC friend and his name is Samson. I only have one prince and his name is Realman. Speaking of which, he shrunk a bit more. I am sad.

8. I love cheesecake. I am trying to refrain from posting 10 random facts about me and food. Really. That's why I haven't mentioned that I used to hate Jap food but now am a bit more open to it. And that I can't take beef but I think I accidentally tried it when I ate mashed potato with beef bits in HK. But I spat as much of it out as I could. The story of why I don't take beef is because my family doesn't take beef. My mum says because cows (bulls? buffaloes?) plough the field and allow us to have rice (which we eat almost everyday, it's a staple) so we shouldn't be evil and eat them. It sounds mildly ridiculous but I abide by the rule. Cuz I think I have enough meat choices anyway.

9. I am really low in openness to experiences. The only bubble tea flavour I pick at each-a-cup is Mocha Ice Blended, and the only gongcha I drink is Earl Grey Milk Tea. And I don't try exotic ice-cream flavours, so I usually stick to coffee, mint and chocolate.

10. I really love rides at theme parks. Because it's the only time you can scream legitimately.

Whee, look at Samson's EEE here!

Too complicated.

Complicated people should not complicate the minds of simple people. Simple people get frustrated when they cannot understand how complicated things are, from the point of view of a complicated person. Complicated person cannot believe how simple things are, from the point of view of a simple person. A complicated person has to understand that a simple person is contented with being simple, while a simple person has to understand that a complicated person needs to complicate things up in order to feel contented.

If you liked it then you should have put a ring on it.

A patronizing post, to encourage S_ms_n to post! I can't believe there are no new posts for me to read!

大家加油!

Guide to hooking angmoh princes!

Learn how to hook an angmoh prince!

To-do list.

Stop. Falling. Sick.

I think I should get a loyalty card from the doctor, whereby I earn a stamp for every consultation and for every 3 stamps I earn, I get a free consultation. The number of times I am falling sick is getting too ridiculous!

我的字典裡沒有放棄

我的字典裡沒有放棄　
因為已鎖定你　
我從不寫空白的日記　
日記裡全是你
　
眼前這月亮悄悄溜走　
又見那太陽緩緩升起　
多少個晝夜變換　
多少次一年四季　
愛不偷懶終於如一

For you who cannot read simplified Chinese. My favourite cheer-me-up song! If they got an uglier guy to star in the MV it would be even happier. :D

Okay, shall go do some work now!

I love to fall sick.

The updated 4-Chord Song! I think I posted the older version a long time ago. I think they are really talented. Haha.

It's recess week! Finally! But I spent the first two days getting sick. After work on Sat, I went to ti deng long (carry lanterns, for the benefit of the only reader from US who can't read hanyu pinyin) with my JC classmates and we had lots of fun doing light painting and taking weird photographs. Yes, the drawing with sparklers thing is called light painting.

But at 5.44am (I noted the time), I suddenly woke up cuz of this urge to puke. And I was shivering in bed. Then I rushed to the toilet and puked. It was a really terrible feeling, but I didn't dare to wake my family up. So I washed up and went to bed. The next morning I had to cancel all my tuition and go to the doctor. And the whole of Sunday was spent being groggy and not knowing what's happening around me most of the time. Haha.

I love being sick because it gives you an excuse to not do work. But that means having to do more on other days. Still, being sick gives you a good excuse to truly rest, i.e. laze around and not do anything. :D

SAMSON IS SNEAKY.

Quick update before I go for work.

I think I really need to have a break on Fridays. Lesson learnt: Don't plan lessons on Fridays. I need the rest badly for work on Sat.

Realman Dontslang has grown to be a real man but he sort of shrunk. I am very upset about it. But I think that makes him a merman, since he has to stay in water to remain big. I'll post pictures another time, if I remember. So I think I have to change his name to Realman Dontshrink. But that's a little suggestive, according to a friend.

Whenever I am very bothered by school (not stressed, just bothered by the amount of work we have to do), I think of the CUHK days when everything was so slack. I kind of forgotten that tests weren't supposed to be so easy, and having quiz after quiz after quiz is the norm. I hope I can get things together again this recess week. Argh.

And yes, I'll be ending the week with the Hossan Leong show! :D Mega happy about it! YAY. Oh, I watched The Lion King at MBS with family that day and it was good! Until I realised how expensive the tickets were. After a special staff discount, each ticket still cost $90. But it was worth it, I think. (Trying to reduce the dissonance)

SNEAKY SAMSON! YOU UPDATED YOUR BLOG LIKE 10 TIMES OR SOMETHING! AH I'LL GO READ NOW.

The Gift.

My first soft toy from a male. HAHAHAHA. Boy give one leh! Woohoo~~

Okay, it was a Teachers' Day gift. I was happy although 1) I don't like hugging soft toys (I always picture kids drooling over them/throwing them on the floors of Kiddy Palace before some innocent customer picks up the toy and buys it) and 2) I have no place to put it at home (cuz as you probably cannot see from the picture, it is quite big). But it's really my first time receiving a soft toy (I think, if you don't count the small Spongebob Yx and friends gave me from Australia), from a boy somemore! Okay if he was a real man I would be happier.

Speaking of real man, Realman is full grown now. So people can stop making jokes about him like "Oh, put him into the ocean, he will become an even bigger man!" (Samson Cheung, 2011). My mum was like, "What if in the middle of the night Realman suddenly screams 'Let me out! Let me out!'?" She's taking it too seriously, really. She told me she helped me change the water and I was like uhhhhh, why? Then she said cuz the water has been there for very long already (i.e. 1 day) and it looks dirty. I think she just wants to play with Realman.

So I have transferred Realman into another capsule which I can bring out! Yippee!

Realman Dontslang.

This is the toy I bought from a bazaar at NUS last week! It cost me $5 but it was all for a good cause. The proceeds go to Northlight School. Guess what's so special about the toy!

Give you a hint!

HAHA, according to the instructions, when you add water to it, it will turn into a prince! :D WOOHOO. Just what I needed! A real prince! There was also this ugly duckling --> swan one but who cares about swans. But when you first add water to it, it will foam and after a few minutes, the prince will appear. You are supposed to pour the water away and then add in new water. Then the prince will grow into a real man! There was a message behind it too--Transformation takes time.

There! My frog staring happily at you after I added water into it! :D Then its eye started to drop, and the skin started to disintegrate. Too gross so no pictures. The water also became green.

There! On 01/09/2011, the little prince appeared! But I'll have to wait 3 days for it to become a real man. I checked this morning and the prince didn't look too good haha so I feel a little cheated. But I hope it grows big and strong.

I've also decided on a name for my prince. I'm going to name it after the brother of this ABC I met at summer school. He's Herman, so I'll name my prince Realman. Realman Dontslang.

When Realman becomes a real man, I'll post a photo of him again! :D

My Group Project.

The most exciting group project I've ever been given.

HAHA. The module is called 'Group Dynamics', so we have to get into groups with people we don't know and do an activity together. We can choose any activity, as long as it is interactive. And at the end of it, we will write a report on our experience and apply concepts of group dynamics to it.

Sounds very fun! :D

Finding out about the self.

When I was younger, I remember once I wasn't feeling well and I kept quiet about it. Then my mum asked me to help her do some stuff. Until I couldn't take it anymore and finally told her, "Can't you tell that I am sick?" And she replied, "If you didn't say, how would I know?"

From then on, I learnt I am attention seeking but I don't want to appear attention seeking. I call myself a 'Secret Attention Seeker'. It's something like in my head I'm screaming "Listen to me!! Look at me!!" but on the surface I'm like, "It's okay..."

Maybe it's just my transition stage. Or maybe the transition stage is just a convenient excuse. In the meantime, you all just have to bear with it. HAHA. Told you I am attention seeking!

Random thoughts on the long ride home.

1. I lack the ability to write emo status updates.

2. I lack the guts to write emo status updates.

3. I lack the courage to write emo blog posts.

4. I feel like I should stop allowing myself to be made used of/taken advantage of.

5. No one is interested in my story. And I find myself being unable to tell anyone.

This sucks.

Get back to reality.

School has started. Being a Year 3 feels...weird. On one hand, I feel very happy looking at Year 1s look lost (HAHAHAHA) and looking at familiar and not-so-familiar new faces around school is interesting. On the other hand, everything is going according to expectations and things are so predictable. It's almost like a routine--I know how lecture is going to be like, how I have to bid for my tutorials, how everyone has to grumble about their timetable, how everyone has to complain about the amount of readings we get. So much so that it gets a bit boring? Maybe not boring, but there's nothing for me to look forward to when I go to school so it feels a little weird.

But I have to remind myself to get back to reality, that despite the fact that my CAP isn't going to shoot sky high (another sian thing about being a Year 3, but good thing is it won't go ground low too), I still have to study. And find out where I want to go from here, or where all these are going to lead me to. It's like a mid-course crisis, except that it's not really a crisis. Maybe it's just a minor adjustment I have to get used to. Just like how my 8am lesson must be at U-Town (I still don't get it!), I have to adjust to all these.

On a happier note (in the midst of the confused notes), I finally watched Harry Potter with my sis last weekend. And it all comes to an end. I'm not a HP fan so I don't feel anything (Maybe just, YES I CAN FINALLY STOP SPENDING MONEY ON HARRY POTTER MOVIES!) but I still remember watching the first movie with my primary school classmates. And it's like if you've watched Part 1, you got to watch Part 2 and Part 3 and Part 4 and so on. So I just happened to watch all the movies in the series though I don't remember half the story lines. And I watched the Rise of the Planet of the Apes too! It has been some time since I watched movies. :D

Ohoh! And I have Whatsapp now. I can't believe I am being so tech-savvy. But since I don't have data plan, the only time I can Whatsapp is when there is Wifi. And most of the time I am at home. So I don't know why we can't fb chat/MSN/Skype instead. HAHA. Then again, it's time to come out of my cave into the cool world of iPhone apps. So we'll see how this Whatsapp thing goes.

Back, and alive.

Sunrise in school at 5.20am. I'll miss CUHK!

This is just to tell you I am back, and school is starting, and I feel senior and powerful looking at Year 1s fumble and panic. HAHAHAHAHAHA. And Utown reminds me of my school in HK. Anyway, NUS is like a mini Singapore and that makes Utown the Sentosa. Still must cross a bridge to reach. But good news is, you don't have to pay $3.

And I still have a problem to solve. How NOT to take cab home every Friday after lecture at 10pm. ZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz.

Last words...for the month of June.

Point form so that it's easy for you to read and easy for me to write:

1. No July anchovies (or maybe I'll try to put a post) so I'm pretty sad.

2. In the meantime I'm going to be blogging about HK HERE so in case my 20,000 fans out there want to know about my hip and happening life, you can go there.

3. I fell sick so I'm trying to make myself well again before I get barred from entering HK.

4. If you have a wishlist, go ahead and post on my fb. I cannot guarantee that all your wishes will come true but I'll try.

5. Don't miss me! :D

Most pierced woman gets married.

Walau. WHY NOBODY WANT TO MARRY ME. Do I have to go to such lengths to get married?

Meet up. Now or never.

(Almost) the most heavenly desert. Until I tasted Ritz Durian Strudel.

Ahhhhh my family is finally back! Lonely days are finally over!!

Anyway, I only have slightly more than 2 weeks left before I leave for Survivor: Hong Kong. So better meet up before I win a million dollars and don't friend you all liao. ESP Seeing whom I don't think is reading this anymore. If we don't meet, we'll have to wait till next year OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. This is crazy! The last time I saw you was...was...so long I can't even remember. Okay it was Xinfang's birthday! Which was like in March. At this rate, I'm going to forget how you look like (~Forget youuuu, woo woo hoo!)

(A quick check on fb tells me that the last time we met was actually on Weiting's birthday celebration. Which was still in March wad!)

Abrupt ending.

THE Proposal!

Watch how the angmoh proposes. So crazy yet so sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet.

Quote of the Day

Do not make someone your priority when to them, you are only an option.

Read this quote a long long time ago, and somehow I just got reminded of it again today. Therefore I thought it must be a sign from the rainbows that I had to share it.

That was a poor attempt to link the photo to the quote.

For the June Anchovies

In case I don't get an anchovie for June.

Here are some pictures to brighten up the place!

Grandma's birthday cake. I led the team of cousins to draw and design the cake. 3 mahjong tiles with 4 numbers up to your own interpretation. Got buy, got win. No buy, no win. Fun not?

What I saw at the Esplanade some time ago. I think it was entitled "Skin" or Skin something. Or maybe something skin. I don't know, it has been so long ago. All these were made with balloons and mixed with paint. Kind of resembles the old, wrinkly skin.

All the balloons together on one wall. Plus the lighting, creating shadows. I think it looks pretty cool. :D

Attempt to for it to look artistic. I really love this wall at the Esplanade.

Random place we ate at some time ago. The names of the stalls at this coffeeshop are all very cute. But fav is of course this. :D

I've been enjoying life wayyyyy too much. Because I don't have work (except the usual tuition I'm doing). So from now on, I shall not go out unless it's for free things. Or cheaper than free things.

So you think you can Multitask?

Try THIS. So cool! :D

Whatsup with my life.

As you know, I am wasting my youth away everyday since I am jobless and lonely. Wait, did I just write that in another post? Okay, so you know that everyday is the same for me. The place I go to the most is (surprisingly) school, for briefings and meetings and what-nots.

Sidetrack: Am watching the groupchat initiated by one of the summer school students. HAHA. I feel like a stalker.

Okay sidetrack again: I joined in their conversation about Portugese egg tarts. Ohmy, I can talk about egg tarts all day lah.

Anyway, so please do not ask me out for activities which require me to spend money. If you have temp jobs for 1 day to 4 weeks please tell me.

Sidetrack: I am talking to angmohs now AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA. Plus a Malaysian and someone who stays in Macau. And we're talking about staying in dorms now. So excitingggggg.

Back to main topic. I only want to announce that I FINALLY watched gong xin ji after n years, and it wasn't as good as I expected. I think it's all the hype luh, just like how everyone thinks Avatar is ohsogreat!!! and when you finally get you watch you, you're like 'Oh.' But the point is I finished the show in half a week (tells you how free I am).

Sidetrack again: The angmohs want to learn Singlish from us. HAHAHAHA. (We're talking about which countries we are from) And they want to eat hai nan ji fan.

Okay that's all. I think my sidetracks are longer than the post itself. :S

OKAY FINAL SIDETRACK: Am leaving the convo cuz they are talking about places in the US. I don't know anything!!

Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily...

I am going back to school 2 days in a row. Row row row your boat.

I am desperate for a temp job. I don't want to waste my life away. Distance doesn't matter as long as it is in Singapore, with the exception of Pulau Ubin, Pulau Tekong and Sentosa. Money doesn't matter as long as it covers transport and food and I still have a little bit left over that I can save up. Please hire me.

Quick one.

Exams are finally over. Meaning I can finally read news about the GE without feeling guilty for not having spent the time on books.

Going for my first rally today and I hope it doesn't rain! I don't want to walk on muddy ground :S HAHA. And I hope it's good!

I hope this holidays would be meaningfully spent. For the interested, I'm going to Hong Kong in my birthday month (but I still demand presents HAHA) and I'm super excited about that. It's actually the furthest place I've ever been to in my life so far (the other 2 being Bangkok and dear Malaysia. Anyway I already forgot how Bangkok looks like, I went there 1023819038 years ago), and this time there is a bit more freedom (or independence) so I'm really looking forward to making new (angmoh) friends. HAHAHAHAHA. 3 brackets in one sentence, it must have been irritating for you to read.

And I'm going for an interview for a 3 week temp job later. Hope it all goes well so I won't be slacking too much. :D

Okay, update more soon!

Exams are nearing again.

My laptop wallpaper. In case I forget to study.

Running out.

If patience is a place, then I am running out of it.

Just in case I don't have an archive for April.

Because it's exam month! So I shall leave you with 10 things on my mind now:

1. I am not motivated to meet people. Unless there are special circumstances. I think you can tell from my level of enthusiasm as reflected in the number of !!!. HAHA.

2. The only time I eat Taro is when it is in Taro Pie.

3. The only time I consume coconut milk is when it is in curry.

4. I know you don't know that I know you are reading this.

5. I have no time to entertain people so it shall be YES-NO month. Meaning I shall only reply yes or no. Even if it is not a yes-no question.

6. Thank whoever's up there for awesome project mates (for 2 out of 3 groups) because they are really the most awesome project group mates one can ever have.

7. Twitter was more fun than I thought.

8. And I still have 1 assignment and 1 quiz before I start studying for exams.

9. I am quitting Restaurant City. For as long as I quit.

10. Been wanting to share this but when I came across this article it was the Japan earthquake/tsunami period so it didn't seem nice to share something so unimportant. I think this will clear some of our queries so click HERE to read it. It is called the Ladder Theory, and recently a few people I came across brought up this topic too. So before you get lost in your own little world, this piece of information will enrich your life by 193910923 times.

A sneak peek in case you are still unwilling to click HERE.

"Here’s an interesting concept in the dating world, The Ladder Theory. The ladder theory is ultimately quite simple: men have one ladder, women have two ladders. The ladder represents our willingness to “date” someone. For instance, the higher someone is on the ladder, the more likely we are to date them. The lower they are, unfortunately, the less likely we would ever consider pursuing a relationship with them. "

That's all. :D

I like funny people.

My first memory of my first impression of Hossan Leong. I heard the original song on Class 95 FM and was reminded of this.

Can't wait for the Hossan Leong Show 2011! And am still regretting the fact that I missed Kumar's show. :S

Favourite Tweet of the Month

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.

Bad news.

My lecturer announced today that one of our coursemates had passed away recently.

It was one of those moments when everyone stops and listens. Nobody packs anything though it was time to go, nobody rushes off, some gasp but the rest remain silent. Lecturer tries to break the news in the best way possible. Perhaps of the difference in culture, he didn't know what to expect. How would we react to a death of a peer? A person who was once present in the lecture hall? A person whom I might have sat next to in my shit-no-seat-just-grab-nearest-chair moments? A person whom I might have seen around campus, whom I might be able to recognise though we never said hi?

It was a weird moment for me. It never gets easier to deal with deaths, especially when young people die. Using my most psychological perspective in the most layman's terms possible, I guess we don't believe that young people can/should die so early. Old people pass away, we can understand and accept. But the thought of a young person dying just reminds us that we too, are young and we too could die. Hence, we feel threatened and we try not to think about it. When reality strikes time and again, we get flustered. We don't know how to deal with it because we can no longer assure ourselves that it will not happen to us.

Nevertheless, I hope his family can cope well and recover.

Japan explains nuclear problem to Japanese kids.

As much as I still feel it is karma, the less evil side of me still wishes them well.

Change We Need.

Sick and tired of everything. Of this, that, this, that and you you you.

Bullying.

You bully others because you were once bullied. That's the only reason I can think of.

In light of the recent earthquake,

I couldn't help but feel that it's karma.

Really, 有因必有果. Actions have consequences. Japan killed so many in WWII, and it might just be karma.

I am not saying that:
1) Japan deserves it.
2) The victims deserve to die.
3) The people deserve to suffer.

Neither am I gloating over Japan getting its retribution.

Just that, it was the only thing on my mind when I watch news/clips of the destructions. 不是不报，时辰未到. Dad agreed. Mum didn't. She said it is ridiculous--those who were involved in the war had already died and reincarnated 102819 times. But for harm to befall when Japan developing so well, surely it must mean something.

I felt sadder during the Sichuan Earthquake/the tsunami that hit Aceh. This time, I think it is something very tragic but I don't feel the sadness.

Don't know, could just be that I am cold and unfeeling.

P.S. I am sorry that I cannot stand up for you, contact friend.