In case I forget

In case I forget that life has been great to be at this point in time, I am grateful for many things that I have.

Thank you for giving me a job which may not be the best in the world, but I have a desk and not very shitty colleagues. I have not too expensive food choices available, and reasonable working hours.

Thank you for supportive parents who give in to me and help me change bedsheets when I 撒娇 and suggest to eat heng hua lor mee when I said I want to join dinner. I should always remind myself to be more patient and more patient.

Thank you for siblings and cousins for making time for me and keeping 不能说的秘密. Lil sis is gonna treat mother's day meal wheeeee.

Thank you for nice friends who check in on me every once in a while, accompany me to eat nice food, accompany me to eat food that I think are nice but you all may not think are nice, let me leech on your expertise, give me the pep talks that I need when I just did a shitty jog or am feeling pmsy. You are and will continue to be important to me.

As with all last lines in 红星大奖, thank you for giving in to all my rubbish everyday, caring for my friends and family because you know they are important to me, commending that my outfits are nice when I feel that I look like sai, being so encouraging yet so brutally honest at the same time and being able to sense my sadness and addressing my issues as if they are the most important problems in the world.

I am a very blessed soon-to-be 27 year old.

Resolution

We are already 1/3 into the year.

That day I was having a meal with someone I didn't know very well and was asked what my goals were. Then I realised I didn't really do that resolution setting thing this year.

This year, I hope to:

1. Be better at what I do

2. Try 1 new thing - maybe skydiving teehee

3. Read books

4. Learn new things - perhaps a language, or cycling

5. Take 1 risk

At this point in time

Work is piling like food on a buffet plate. Except I am on a diet but I need to finish the food. I would need to learn to adjust and adapt to it, together with other things that I want to be able to spend time on.

Ice bear. Ice bear. Ice bear.

27 is my prime

May this serve as a reminder that I once was a very lucky and blessed (not too) 小bitch.

Falling Down

I fell down today at the ice skating rink.

It was mildly embarrassing (6 year olds zoom past me when I was on the ground) initially, then the pain sets in (and one feels wtfwtfwtfffff) and it ends off being quite a good feeling.

It has been quite some time since I last fell. Which means it has been quite some time since I challenged myself to something out of my comfort zone. When we were young we fall a lot more. We take risks, we dive in without being bothered about what others think, we learn from experiencing the consequences. But as we learn, we take less risks, we become more bothered, we want to protect ourselves.

No pain no gain I guess. In the meantime, my butt continues to hurt (seriously, big butts don't cushion falls).

Those end-of-year posts.

As 2016 draws to an end, I guess we should do an obligatory end of the year post.

List for the many things I am grateful for:

1. (Rather) Good health, for myself and for family

2. Being introduced to my current job, and not screwing up anything major thus far

3. Having run my first 10k, though I had to walk with a limp for a few days after that

4. The chance, the company, and the ability to visit Japan like a leech, and getting to eat so so so so so many nice things (screams tuna sushiiiii)

5. Taiwan, whereby I got to buy lots and lots of fls and experience transport from a now defunct airline

6. And the recent Malacca, which was eat sleep eat eat eat sleep - sinful and blessed

7. Nice people around me. They say you are the average of 5 people you spend the most time with but I don't think I am as nice as you all. Thank you for lending a helping hand, for showing concern, for going on theme park rides with me, for encouraging me to share what is on my mind because I suck at expressing myself, for knowing what I will say next, for playing the lame games I design, for giving me the parts of the fish without bones, for helping me peel crab, for having my diet in mind when we meet up, for encouraging me when I dont feel like jogging, for treating me to food, and for putting up with me for another year.

GP

I have seen this GP of mine for 10 years. Never was any consultation more than 10mins long.

Today I went to him for a problem and requested for help. He expressed that he is unable to take sides but would provide an opinion when asked.

What he did do for me in a 20min consultation is to help me put things into perspective. To help manage expectations and yet give his two cents worth on the harsh reality of life from his years of practice. And as a rash(er) young adult who hasn't had to see many of the uglier things around, it did help me understand and manage my emotions.

In the midst of singling out unfair things that happen to us, sometimes we forget that there are more important things that we have that no one can take away. It also reminded me of something I was told a long time ago - 人生还有很多亏等你去吃.

So I guess instead of focusing on giving my best and being fixated on the results which are, more often that not, disappointing I should take things in stride.

Best of all, the 20min lesson was free.